hell whats the point in making a silly goal you'll probably
end up giving up on a few weeks in,
but what the hell,
maybe it'll stick.
so it seems my plans to move to oregon in august
are really showing themselves and telling me to
go ahead and jump on it early and be there in
march or april,
so with yet another new move,
im going to try and find the things that the move
to chicago didnt end up including.
resolution 1:
find a sanctuary.
when i was in washington my house generally
really felt like my home,
and even when things got chaotic there,
i always had my baby car,
here, my house isnt really my home,
the lack of car thing ive decided is for some people,
but im not one of them,
my job is currently my home-y place but that really
doesnt seem too healthy and i dont have
much control over when that changes,
especially now that starbucks as a company
is holding on by a pinky and screwing
us all in the process.
leading me to...
resolutions 2 & 3:
buy a nice car that i can rely on and love
& work for a company that appreciates me
bending over backwards for them.
with my tax return coming in right around when
i move and the costs of living in portland being
so much lower than the costs of living in chicago
i'll be able to make car payments on my dream car,
'06 scion xb
yes, its true, i love them,
you can actually find them for around 6-8 grand
these days which is more than i can lay down
at once, but cheap enough i could pay it off
in at most a couple years,
plus it'll be super reliable,
and if gas prices decide to spike again,
it gets great gas milage.
not to mention it still has a nice hatch back
and plenty of room for people or stuff
without being a giant beast like my mothers SUV.
back to jobs, i figure ill go ahead and transfer
to a starbucks out there so i wont have to do
that awful looking for a job frantic thing
while settling into a new place,
but i miss working for a smaller company.
maybe i can convince crusin coffee
to go ahead and expand to oregon. =]]
id like to start that whole moving up in
a company thing, but id really like it
to be a company thats small enough to
actually be able to see and appreciate all
my hard work, plus until your atleast
an assistant manager and on salary at starbucks,
it doesnt matter how long your with the company
or how much work you put in,
you get paid shit.
it'll be much easier to find another coffee place
to work at back in the northwest where everyone
treats coffee like its legal crack =]]
alright soo....
resolution 4:
use all this energy.
lately ive had tons and tons of motivation and
energy, and as much as i hate that whole
"work out more resolution"
id mostly just like to not let this shove go to waste.
since ive moved to the city ive built up
tons of muscle so i figure i might as
well burn some of this stuff off if
im all sparked up to do so anyway,
it would be silly to waste it.
i think i wanna start dancing again.
resolution 5:
put an effort into staying close with family & friends.
as im getting older my family is becoming less
and less of a burden and more and more
of people i really want to be around and have
in my life, so id like to be closer to them.
plus theres gonna be tiny forrests running
around somewhat soon and i cant let them
fully be raised by a couple of dirty hippies =]
also with this whole running around the country
looking for whatevers next ive met some
incredible people and realized who i dont want
to loose back home, so id like to continue
to stay close with them and of course ill
continue to visit chicago, hell, its one of my homes.
resolution 6:
figure out how to let people in.
the last few years have really tested me over and over,
and in the process ive manage to acquire a bit
of a shield that id like to be able to take down
and maybe let a few people here and there in.
i feel like ive gotten to a strong enough point in
my life where if someone hurts me ill be able to
deal with it in a normal way,
so hopefully it'll all get a little easier to not
be so guarded this year.
thats about all i have for now,
we'll see how it all goes,
hope everyone had a good new year,
toasted to cheap champange
and are ready to dive in head first.
<3
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