too funny =]]

"Prop 8 - The Musical" starring Jack Black, John C. Reilly, and many more... by Jack Black

commitment must be foreign

Remember that day when i changed my mind again
and was too busy to explain
and you ignored me and just said no.
i guess you were listening when i spoke.

-

I dont make decisions.
my head thinks too hard
and my fingers ache for a torture
to fuel me as i scribble down more
bullshit about confusion and love.
turns out i dont like when other people
make my decisions for me either.

-

sometimes i think im too screwed
up to hold onto your heart without dropping it.
sometimes i wonder if im just too...concentrated.
is it possible to del-lute someones personality?
im pretty sure im too crazy,
but ive heard by knowing that,
it makes me normal.
normal makes my lungs itch.

-

its like when you tell me to stop when
i get scared you'll stop loving me.
its like when you say your not going to
give up on me and two minutes later say,
"just forget all of it."

-

i told you not to trust me,
you told me it would work.

-

its like when you let me drink till im gone
because you know when my heart is
intoxicated im ok with touch.
its like when you show me your skin
because you know i love to be the
exception to the rules.

-

your words turn me on the way
my lies do,
i love when i beat my conations.
the way getting hit in the face does,
the way i dont want to get bored again.

-

...my fear and your determination
keep this love afloat.

washington...

its weird being back here.
its weird that this is no longer home.
i couldnt have hoped for any better outcome,
a good time,
but i dont want to stay.
i like my job and my friends and my time alone.
i like chicago.
i like being a proud stranger,
never an ashamed citizen.
i guess its true,
if you love something,
give it away.

a side of me i dont know...

it always blindsides me when my persona does a flip flop,
i figured id be used to it by now since at most
one only sticks around for like 6 months at a time.
its always a nice break from myself.
new music, new outlook, new appearence sometimes.
its little things,
i rebleached my hair this weekend,
so its finally REALLY blonde like i wanted,
i razored the hell out of it so its all short and cute
which ive been wanting to do for so long.

also, bought new gauges a bit bigger than my last ones.
they were a little pricey, but i couldnt
make it through the midwest winter with steel ones
so it was worth it.

plus its fun to have contrasting colored
gauges with your hair.
=]
ill be home in washington in like 15 hours!
this is a very happy Taylor!
i guess thats about it,
im just in a very happy place right now.
=]

snowbunny

so its finally started snowing here in lovely chicago
i was sad to realize though that in a big city
thats used to snow in the winter,
the world doesnt really....freeze
the same way it did back home.
its still wonderful though,
a little more difficult to run errands
and shit in, but i guess you gotta pay for
the good things in life.
and its so cold here it literally hurts to breathe.
but good news everyone....
IM GOING HOME TO WASHINGTON IN 3 DAYS!!!
woooo
i dont think ive ever been more excited
to be in washington in my life.
=]
also i was slightly sad becasue i wasnt going
to see my sister and i havent seen her since
last christmas ever, BUT
2 1/2 hour layover in denver on my way home
which just so happens to be where the lovely
morgan resides these days, so atleast time
for a cup of coffee and a smoke with her.
plus my mother has passed on her ability
to keep an eye out for good deals online
and ive found tickets from denver for 150
so im flying the silly hoe out here for her
christmas present.
dear morgan,
act surprised. =]
love. Taylor
alright well with only a couple days left
to get everything in order before i leave
im off to get bleach to do my hair.
mmm white hair.
wish me luck in the arctic tundra!
<3