some silly baristas and possible new projects?

so ive been working at the starbucks on the corner of
Clark and Bellmont in the middle of boys town in chicago,
mostly graveyard and the night crew is absolutely...
amazing. If not for them there would be much less
laughter in my life.
last night some crazy homophobe came in and
was just being an ass literally spewing things
like "im a homophobe i hate the gays and youll
never change my mind and make me gay"
yes, apparently there really are people out
there still living in a world where men and woman
only fuck their opposites.
wheres the fun in that? haha.
needless to say we told him he needed to leave
because he was getting no coffee from us gays.
haha but he just stood there for a while with
the argument that as soon as he left we were
all going to high five because we had won and
turned him gay.
yes that was his actual argument and the
actual scene playing out in his head.
well needless to say, we didnt high five,
well we might of just because he told us not to,
but mostly we found some suction cups
and stuck them to our forheads with signs
making fun of him hanging off of them.

mine says "welcome to starbucks"
my friend newton [[the middle one]] says "im a homophobe"
hes a big gaymo haha
and my shift leaders [[the tall one in the last photo]]
says "Hey buddy! [suck my dick]"
oh btw, me saying hey buddy to the nut job
is what set him off like somehow a girl calling
you buddy secretly means "i think you take it in the ass"
anyway now that you can see what my coworkers are like,
me and newton have gotten on this what would
we do if there was a zombie attack while we
were at work kick, so i dont know if youve heard of it,
but theres a book called
"the zombie survival guide" by max brooks
well we've decided we're gonna go ahead
and make the starbucks version
complete with diagrams, classifications,
fake photos and what anyone inside a starbucks
would need to know to survive the zombies.
it should be a good time.

im also pretty excited about this project of my
own i wanna work on.
id love to get a bit of a community formed,
people from all over the country,
hopefully some from out of the country too
and exchange mix cds.
like actually take the time to put a cd all together
complete with little doodles, track lists, etc.
like a pen pal like thing but with mix cds.
i mean really who doesnt like music
and who doesnt like opening up their mailbox
to find something other than bills and ads.
im going to see what i can put together,
but im really excited about it.
you'll definitely be hearing more about this project.
i gotta think of a decent name for it.
hmmm.
well thats about it for the evening.
take care and stay warm!

so ive decided that not only am i not satisfied here or back home
i dont think ill be satisfied anywhere.
i love a goal and something to work toward
and ive been working for this the last 4 years and
now im here and all i can think about is what im
going to do next.
hey morgan,
turns out we might be more similar
than we thought.
i also think you could plop me down
just about anywhere i know the language to
and within a month id be happy and settled.
i think i might be terrified of settling.
hmmm.
maybe just afraid of being boring?
i think i gotta start making art.
seems as though i cant force myself to write.
ive only written like 3 times in the last 3 months
ive been here.
damn art supplies being so expensive.
stay tuned for some creations.
ive been working on a bad ass sweatshirt
for a friend back home and im happy with
how its turning out.
i wish they carried spray paint in the city.
id like to start a board that i can just tag
and re tag over and over,
but i only brought 4 cans of paint with me
and im worried about not being able to get more.
i wish i was 25 so i could rent an icar
and drive out to the burbs and pick up some paint
well actually mostly just so i can drive again,
god i miss it.
i talked to the old manager back home today
and he was excited to hear she might be getting me back.
44 days till i visit or whatever.
im ready for some good old fashion
roots and history.
its weird being in a place where you dont have
more than 3 months of memories with anything.
hmmm.
in other news
its cold
=]]
i always feel better and mor functionable in the cold
or dissfunctional,
i havent decided which but whatever it is i like it more.
i guess thats about it for now,
btw
SISTER! CALL ME OR ANSWER YOUR PHONE!
i feel like i havent talked to you in forever!
<3

a month and a half left...maybe....

alright so at this point im really just trying to decide,
washington or illinois...
dont get me wrong,
chicago has treated me better than i could
have ever imagined.
i guess i forgot that i had the ability to start over
again and again and again.
since i can remember its always been my goal
to get out of bellingham and then i guess
i just thought everything would just be perfect,
silly me.
no, surprisingly actually things have been great,
i enjoy my job for the most,
ive made tons of friends who are all amazing,
i did it i guess,
but its just, not it...
like id like to go to school,
have an actual career even if its like
manager somewhere,
so not even necessarily school,
probably though, and as much as i love
the idea of "going off to college" like majority
of kids its not in my reality like that.
to manage to live in chicago i have to work a bunch
and to be able to get those kind of hours
i have to have open availibility
which i wouldnt be able to have while going to school
let alone trying to figure out how to pay for the
whole school thing without coming out
oweing my soul in student loans
which would almost be worse than not going at all.
soooo i guess ive just realized there isnt going
to be some fairytale somewhere and i gotta
figure out where i want to build up from.
i fly back home to visit for my birthday on december 9th
and since i already have a ticket back then
i guess im gonna either decide to keep it
a visit and use the seattle to chicago part of the ticket
as well or ship my stuff back and take this experience with me.
im a little overwhelmed.
i guess i was hoping to land in a place that felt like
home and everything just kinda fell together,
but rude awakening,
daydreams and reality arent quite the same.
i feel sick,
like if i go back im giving up or failing or not making it,
but if i stay here i feel like im just trying to prove
something i already know.
boy i wish right now i was miserable here
or hated it back home,
but in reality,
its neither,
just another decision i cant force myself to make.
i cant smoke enough ciggarettes to make my head clear
cant keep busy enough to forget.
id love a piece of advice,
anyones opinion will do.
maybe ill finally be able to sleep again once
i make a decision.
please and thank you.

in other news.
-begin rant-
i hate the puppy.
its teeth are now sharp enough to break skin
which it is doing on a daily basis
and its snapping at faces or whatever other
body part is in its way.
its pissing and shitting in the house constantly.
chewing up shoes, cords, papers whatever
it can get its mouth on,
except its giant collection of toys
which it just pisses on all the time
so theyre always soaking in our shower
fucking gross.
im sorry but who wants to go to get in the
shower to find now that theyre naked and ready
to get in find a pile of piss soaked dog toys to deal with.
NOT ME.
the roommate whos dog its suppose to be
lets it basically do whatever it pleases.
also if it starts shitting or pissing in the house
doesnt offer to get up and run it outside
and clean up its mess.
the other roommate is about as sick of it as i am
but has figured out a scary voice that stops her,
one i cant seem to get her to understand.
im on the verge of putting the stupid dog outside
in a free box and letting someone who has
the time to deal with her take her.
ugh.
and on top of my anger for her being obnoxious
as all hell, im even more pissed that the rule
was no animals when i wanted to bring my
sweet bite free pottytrained easiest dog in the world
suki babe, but then all of a sudden it was decided
we were getting a dog of my roommates choice
and choice of name and it had to be a pure bred
puppy who was gonna need tons of attention,
did i mention im huge on the whole humane society.
im just sick and tired of having cuts all over
my hands and arms from stupid baby teeth
>_< too much puppy.
-end rant-

also, pretty sick of not sleeping,
not like i slept much back home,
but since ive gotten here my sleep pattern
has been so fucked/non existent.
im down to sleeping maybe 2 nights a week
and somehow my body has adjusted to
semi-functioning with that.
ohhh coffee,
you keep me going through the days.
ive began starting my day with
4 shots of espresso,
3 pumps of vanilla syrup
and an inch of cold soy milk,
divided in 2 and taken like shots.
cant be good for the system.

and a wee bit of good news to perk up this
extremely lengthy mostly ranting blog.
its started raining here
and ive discovered the only thing
that calms me down/takes my mind off of things
besides driving
which i miss so fucking much
is walking multiple miles
in the pouring rain
hair down, no hood,
chucks jeans and a pullover sweatshirt
feist blasting on my ipod
vanilla soy steamer in one hand
kamel red [[which i finally found
a place that sells them!!!] in the other
at night time.
i need it to rain a lot to stay sane.

ok thats all i have i swear,
thanks for reading.

-Taylor Rae

decisions decisions oh and fun stuff...

so i was read my sisters new blog posting
you can read hers here
obviously we're extremely different,
but i figured id share a couple of my etsy favorites
since i have a couple hours to blow before heading back to work
cause starbucks is crazy and does things like schedule
me from 11 p.m.-5a.m.
then noon-9p.m.
thanks.
haha.
so heres some of my recent favorites
that hopefully ill get around to buying one of these days

i do some graffiti here and there so im a big
fan of this hello my name is necklace.
id put my tag which is generally "TECH"
in the open space.

i have something about really awful fake mustaches...
on girls that get the best of me.
you can even pick which style of mustache you want
from these four...

sooo cute!

I love all the vinyl stickers on etsy,
and they're really cheap compared to most sites
you can find them on.
my mac book could seriously use some arting out,
these are a couple of my favorites for laptops...

=]]

so fun!

i love seeded dandelions!
thats actually partially what my next tattoo is of.

ok so i know thats not on a laptop,
but im sure the size would be about right
and god damn do i love tanks!
i blame it on my obsession of tank girl.
=]]
ok thats it for vinyl stickers,
theres a million more i like,
but ill let you look around at them yourself.

doesnt necessarily look like something i would
generally enjoy, but i just think the necklace
and this similarish ring are adorable...

=]]

this little pouch by "Majestyinc" i love
not to mention they have tons of cute funky pouches
including mustaches and 3-d glasses.
i love it!

ok seriously i cant help but love this,
its essentially a roll of duct tape covered in bananas
who doesnt need that?
i mean really.
fucking genious's

these are boxer briefs with an octopus screen printed on them.
i need like 10 pairs of these and ill be happy.
=]]
ok only 2 more i swear...

i love nothing more than a random stuffed animal
of some weird ass animal,
like my snail charlie.
[[hes green with a single fang and
one big eye and one little eye
with yellow spikes down his back,
hes adorable,
but this yellow printed squid is pretty amazing too.
ok last one...

this painting is actually on the girls mom's etsy
cause shes only 15 but shes done a couple of really cute ones
and they all have silly little stories to go along with them.
you can read the story to this octopus here.
ok, thats it for now,
go look around etsy if you havent yet,
there's everything on there,
i just happen to like odd little quirky things
=]]

...in other news.
im sorta toying around with the idea of heading
back to the lovely pacific northwest.
dont get me wrong, chicago is great,
ive made some pretty good friends here,
i enjoy my job for the most part
when they arent scheduling me crazy shifts
and my house is really nice in a good location with good rent
minus our landlord who just calls me punk,
but whatever.
i just think i liked washington people better,
they always have this undertone of insanity,
i love the insanity.
i have no idea what im going to do,
im atleast staying till i go visit for my birthday
in december, so i have 2 more months
at the very least to decide.
which is good,
because if you know me,
im TERRIBLE at making decisions,
especially important ones
and ones that have any kind of commitment to them.
this could be a bit difficult,
hopefully ill get a chance to chat with the parental
units on their take of things soon.
plus, i definitely would rather move up
in the company i was at before than starbucks.
maybe ill just go help my sister run her coffee cart
haha =]]

alright well thats it for now,
ill post again soon.
<3

fall...winter...?

so i think fall has officially conquered the mid west, or atleast the greater chicago area.
after spending the last month hearing about how wonderful fall in bellingham is from everyone back home,
while its been 80 degrees here the cold front has finally hit us.
i was walking home from work the other night at 4:30 a.m.
[[i work graveyard]]
and i started shivering.
generally people wouldnt be happy about that but being from the rainy gloomy northwest, i was.
the only downfall is when it was hot and humid as hell here i only missed bellingham out of spite of the heat, but now i just miss the fall in the northwest.
most people get seasonal depression because of the cold,
i get it missing the cold haha,
dont say i didnt warn you us washingtonians are a bit flip flopped.
work has been a lot of making pumpkin spice lattes and chai teas and hot chocolates,
sooo fall must be in the air.
not to mention my roommates covered our stoop in that tacky fake cobweb shit and puple and black sparkly garlands with little fake bats on it. oh boy...not to mentipon a fake gravestone, yes you read that right.
welcome to the land of tacky halloween decorations.



>_<
In other news...
im starting to make a couple friends =]]
and Killer [[our puppy]]
is getting much bigger.
her ears are even starting to stand up.
she looks less like a little bear cub now and more like a baby fox

=]]
she's generally sweet when im the only one home,
but when my roommates come home,
since theyre the ones doing the training she gets a bit rebellious.
ive been trying to work on some writing,
but there seems to be some sort of blocker in the way.
i need to find a good place to force myself to write.
the shoe is 2000 miles away and my work is full of college students working on homework a lot of the time so we'll see.
i just need coffee, a plug in for my lap top and maybe some chill music,
but i can provide that last one.
speaking of decent music to write to,
i just finished the three week marathon of all 4 seasons of The OC and the music for the show is actually pretty killer.
most of the music is on this site, so if your looking for something new i recommend it.
well, its just about time to head out and get ready for work,
but i figured my blog needed some updating.
ill try not to neglect it again.
oh and...
countdown to going back home for a week...
2 months!
=]]